Something inside me kept asking me to follow what my heart really wants. That is focusing on my real estate broker career. Whenever i’m with them, i feel being trap in a place where there’s no peace. Our GM even mentioned that her mantra is “Work is hard, if its easy then you’re lucky” so it means, dealing with her is always hard. its a total opposite of my mantra. i take one day at a time and prayed to god everyday to lead me where i should be.

I can’t take it anymore. the way they treat people, the way they love to laugh on others mistakes. As if they are perfect. I find them so evil whenever they laugh and talk about others. i don’t wanna be with them… if they can’t be trusted in things like that, how can they be trusted on some other things.

Sometimes i feel like something in me change. When it comes to them i become so judgmental. i don’t trust them at all. Whenever i’m with them, i feel so exhausted and trap. That’s what i feel for the past 3 days that’s why i decided not to go to work today. i think i still need another day for myself.

I wanted to know the answer to this confusion, i just want to live a simple life, where i am free with my time. no one can demand me to arrive on this time and to do this work. i don’t wanted to be with asshole people. i just wanted to work with motivated people. i don’t want to work hard on something where i can’t earn that much. i want to work on something that i love and i can earn too much. In this way, i will feel so accomplished. I know that i will have a balance time with my work, family, myself and god.

I wanted to go on a retreat to find myself and know what to follow. I believe that god will help me get through this in his own time. I just hope that time is near and i pray that i can see signs.

if only my husband would let me stay home with kids, i would surely love it rather than going to work everyday as if facing different people with different attitudes everyday.

Yesterday it was so sad that i really felt blame for not hitting the target. If i only know that they would just focus on selected 2 skus. I rather forecast the 80M purchase i had for that 2 sku. As for me, we shouldn’t blame each other rather than push those that we have stocks. But they only concentrate in selling the fast moving inks and ignoring other things. Strategy of selling is not right for 3 hours of huggling sales.

If we don’t want to fail, hope they gave me forecast so i can able to submit their disti’s forecast. But it was only me who are doing it and of course i’m not god to see what the future demands.

I would even see them behind my back calculating for the lost sales because of no stocks. My boss is really pressured and she was really pressuring me.

Maybe i had a mistake and its a learning. I think my forecast is not enough and i didn’t see that they will be selling only the models that are easier to sell. But then, they don’t have to pull me down coz i already know it.

It was really sad that they are really blamers, they don’t see the other side of it… We have other models to sell and i don’t have much time to save the moment since i don’t know that they will just focus on the easy to sell models. My products is inks, it would have been easier to sell also other models since there are a lot of printer user out there who use such inks.

I hope and pray that this will not happen again. Maybe this is a test for my humility again and i would be using the wisdom that god teaches me. Face it with strength, I’m glad god gave me friends in the office who are willing to listen and understand. They are in deed a great blessings to me.

He was admitted at the hospital last May 30 to June 4 due to kidney failure. After he had his dialysis, he had stroke and it started every fear in each family. All we know that the time is near and he will be leaving us.

The wake held at Sanctuarium Quezon Ave. All the family are cooperative helping each other. Although my sister-in-law still hasn’t change. She always doubt other people like her Ahiya. The arguments are always there, but thank god that everything was settled very well.

During this time, we are glad that the family is one. Hope this is a start of a good relationship. But it was also sad that it will start when angkong is already gone.

Angkong is such a sweet lolo to his apo. He would always call his children and grand children everyday. I would remember the last time he visited us last month here in Paranaque to just get pictures of Chloe and Zion. We know that his health is a bit serious already. He had a hard time walking, that’s why we decided to send her home. We didn’t know that it would just be one month of being with him.

The cremation held at Sanctuarium last June 9, 2010. It was sad that i am not allowed to be there because of my birth sign (monkey). It would be bad luck.

After everything, it is now that we really felt the longing for him. Most especially Jon and his family really felt that sadness are now sinking in. Jon even mentioned that he really missed his father most especially this coming father’s day.

I have never seen my husband as lonely as before. That’s why i had my Cebu trip for 2 days and 1 night only. And went back home because i know that my husband really needs me right now.

We had dinner yesterday, Jon expressed the sadness he felt and the things he regret. I adviced him that he shouldn’t make any regrets, His papa had make most of his time expressing his love for the family. And everything that was said is not important any more because his papa is forgiving. I told him that most of his time being with his papa is such valuable, he did able to take care of his papa whenever they are together. I have seen how they value little moments that they are together.

I still don’t know how to help my husband but then i know that praying for them will heal each other’s hearts. We are sure that angkong already meet god in heaven. He is already healed and happy. We are sure that god is taking care of angkong. And one thing for sure that we are happy that angkong is already healed by god in heaven

She quits the job to be the driver and yaya of her kid’s. It was her husband as president of another company who works to provide for the family.

How i wish i can also be the driver, yaya and tutor of Chloe and Zion. I still pray it can happen…I don’t want to feel guilty anymore. And i wanted to live peaceful with my family.

Hope we can afford to have our own business so i can able to be the driver, yaya, tutor and FULL TIME MOM of Chloe and Zion. I know they wanted it too.

Today Marissa arrived from province, She was the new yaya of Zion and cousin of Em and Corr (previous yaya of Zion). Diday just stayed for 2 months only (replacement of Corr), she leaved for family reasons. Thanking god for blessing us with a helper to take care of our kids. Hope they will love and take care of our kids. We hope that they will also enjoy staying and working in our home